This is a bit awkward to write about but, after talking to a few people who are experiencing similar feelings, it's something I need to share.
Before I get started, please let me tell you that I have an agenda... Yes, I admit it. My agenda is to speak to your heart and if my message resonates with you and you want to know what I'm personally doing to change, I'm asking you to send me a message - either Facebook PM or an email.
So, let me dive in...
As you know, I've been a speaker for years. And I'm good at it. And I'm good at teaching others how to emotionally connect with their audience in a way that is sincere and genuine. My clients get great results from their speaking opportunities when they follow my system. They get leads. And many convert to new clients or customers.
But I've found that I'm less and less excited about reaching out to speak, attending events, etc. I mean, I love it when I get there but it's become harder and harder to make myself go. Why?
Because I've let myself go. And here's where I'm getting real and personal...
Over the past few years, I've really packed on weight. I've tried more diets and programs than there are apps but I couldn't stay disciplined. My body rebelled and went into a state of barely functioning. My mind didn't work - I couldn't focus. My emotions were all over the board. And by the time I'd start seeing some results on the scale, I binged like it was going to be my last meal on earth...
I finally went to a doctor and explained what I was experiencing, looking for help and support. His comment was, "You just need more self-discipline". Well, if I'd followed these programs any longer, I would have "self-disciplined" myself into suicide. Yes, that's how bad it got - something wasn't regulating but no one could give me the answer.
So I tried to be content with being fat. I listened to people who said "Don't let others define you by your body type!" But the truth was, I was the one defining myself by the number on the scale. So I continued to try with no success.
And finally, it happened. I woke up one morning and realized that I was "hiding" at home because I was embarrassed that I'd let myself go. It didn't matter how good I was at my career or that my prospects and clients only talked to me via webinars and phone. I knew the truth and took a good, long, hard look at all the ways I was letting it keep me from the life I dream of and the people I care so much for.
Now, the Universe is interesting. When I saw the impact my weight was having on my life and I sat down in despair, not sure what to do or where to turn, the Universe responded. A friend reached out and told me about a program she'd been using and getting results. I thought, "Sure another program. Another program I can spend money on and fail at."
But she shared a few thoughts that touched my heart... about how she felt so energized without being hyper, how she was able to concentrate and focus, how she was about to eat and enjoy foods without foods (what to eat, what not to eat, what time to eat, etc.) consuming her day, night, and life.
So I thought I'd try it... It had a money back guarantee so it was all good, right?
And guess what. In less than 3 weeks I've dropped 12 pounds and several inches. I didn't measure myself before starting so I can't tell you how many inches I lost but I can show you a picture of how loose my jeans around around the tummy because of the inches lost. It was hard taking this photo because I didn't want the "unmentionables" to show and the shirt hides a bit of the extra slack in the waist. It's absolutely thrilling that I can slide these jeans on and off WITHOUT unbuttoning or unzipping them..
So the reason for this post is this: What is holding you back from doing the things you want? Taking action on your dreams? Spending time with those you care about?
Most of us have some issues we need to work through to improve our confidence and self-esteem.
My issue is getting rid of this extra weight so I can get out of my own way.
P.S. If you want to know what I'm doing, either send me a FB PM or email to firstname.lastname@example.org Maybe it would work for you, maybe it wouldn't. All I know is that it's the best gift I've ever given myself. 🙂